i think i’m going to push myself to apply to colleges this summer
going back still terrifies me but i feel i won’t be satisfied until i try again
i feel wrong, it feels wrong, what am i thinking
yesterday, as i was on my way to purchase tomas the two rip it brand energy drinks that i get for him every sunday, a man called to me from a distance asking for a light. i responded that i didn’t have a lighter to which he said, “i just need a light” to which i then echoed again that i just didn’t have a lighter. later, as i was waiting in line gas station, i realized that it really wouldn’t cost me too much more to just pick up an extra lighter, so i decided to ask the woman working at the register to add one of their lighters to my purchase. she gestured towards the lighter displayr and asked me which particular design i wanted and i noticed a rack of these minimalist baseball lighters. there weren’t any specific teams or colors attached to any of them, just a very simple line drawing of a baseball floating in pure white. i was so blown away by the design that i asked if she could add one more to the purchase. as i walked out the door i could see the man still waiting at the bus stop and i waved the lighter high in the air and shouted, “i got you a great one, here! it’s got a baseball on it!” he shouted back, “man, i don’t care what it looks like!” which i really appreciated hearing.
Do u have a Flickr or anything for collection of non cell photos?
i put almost everything that i create on this blog to make it more true and accessible. sometimes i consider separating things by category etc but ultimately i prefer it this way.
in high school i consumed so much benadryl in attempts to combat what felt like a very real and crippling social anxiety. often i would match my benadryl intake with a variety of pain relievers and seizure medications that my neurologist prescribed me for my migraines. after reflecting for a long time while in college, i concluded that it was probably just more of the intense anxiety that i’d been feeling. i guess i should also say that i slept through a lot of high school. the internet informed me that this is a fairly common practice. i’m left feeling less alone but also a bit sad. i took two benadryl today. i really like how the little B tablets look. my body feels cold. i’m going to take a nap.