three women made their way around the world trade center at the inner harbor, heading towards the aquarium and hard rock cafe. they were dressed in business-casual attire and appeared to have just left their jobs for the day. they all seemed relaxed and happy to be together. as they passed me, one woman smiled and gestured with her head to 9-11 memorial in the grass and said to the group, “what we were saying is….this art…it’s just…something our kids could throw together, you know? Like, wooo…” - i paused and allowed myself to be absorbed by the moment. i had so many feelings.
i ended up at the mall today after missing my stop via a collaboration between a mild-to-semi-severe anxiety attack and a few detours in the bus route. my intention was on using the mall as an anxiety bunker of sorts which kind-of backfired via columbus day sale’s crowds, but in the event i got to hear a girl in passing tell her friends “hashtag badass or whatever” which actually managed to ease some of the distress in me and wandering through an environment like this within a state such as the one i was in can sometimes be exciting. the whole time i couldn’t tell if i was unintentionally giving everyone vaguely negative or alarming facial expressions or if it was just them sending those signals or if neither were happening at all.