my own damn tumblr

i can’t remember much about my time on antidepressants, but what i do remember is that i was somewhere in my fourth year of college. i can recall living with andrew during this time. i remember a few friends, one notably being a dancer and psychologist with whom i was infatuated, expressing their uneasiness with my decision. i remember other friends expressing their open support. i remember telling some friends that i felt like a zombie, although i don’t clearly remember actually feeling this way. i remember it feeling cool outside. i remember seeing you for the first time, coming from around a bush on main st. i remember drinking far too much, on far too many nights. i remember missing a lot. i remember screaming and threatening to commit arson against our most frequented coffee shop. i remember all of the evils which i called people. i remember crying between two friend’s arms. i remember the warm sun and my space heater. i remember you in the snow.

sometimes when i am feeling more down than average, i hear a voice chime in from somewhere that says to me, “you truly are suffering,” and at every time i can never discern whether or not this sentiment is sent sarcastically. all that i can feel for certain is that these aren’t my own words, as far as i can recall i had first met them in a book or a movie,  yet regardless they are here now to ride it out with me and further complicate things.

What's your astrological sign? Wondering how you process things and this is my way of somewhat figuring that out that I guess also I like run on sentences
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Cat Power - Colors And The Kids
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today i went to my first therapy session.upon arriving, i found the receptionist listening to elliott smith and this wonderful drawing leaning on the mantle in the waiting room. i felt welcome.

today i went to my first therapy session.
upon arriving, i found the receptionist listening to elliott smith and this wonderful drawing leaning on the mantle in the waiting room.
i felt welcome.

even if only to have ever even at all